Birthday Party I Never Have

So..I just get back from my friend's birthday party and feel a little bit jealous.

I've always want to celebrate my birthday. Since I was a little girl I always want it.

I always want to wear princess like dress, have a huge cake with princess action figure on the top, a lot of present, and blow the candle while my friends sing around me.

But it never happened.

It was because when I was a kid, my birthday is always on fasting month, it can't be celebrated. As I grow up, I start to lose my desire to celebrate my birthday the way I want it as I used to.

Even thought I never have a real birthday party celebration (I mean a party like my friends have) every year since I was 5 years old (I think) our family always have dinner together on fast food restaurant to eat. But that's just like that. Then the 'tradition' stop when I was 10 years old, my father move out of town because of his job while mother, me and my siblings stayed here and never continued the tradition 'till today.

Then the tradition change, now my father gave me extra money to treat some friend eat somewhere. I don't mind it. No at all. It's just sometimes seeing someone having birthday party on his or her house, inviting a lot of people, getting a lot of congrats, prayer and present made me jealous. 

But well, I think the most important thing is be grateful to God for giving us another year to life,  even without party :)