The Odds

What are the odds of meeting you twice in a day?
I'd say...probably 40% or less.
I find it funny how I used to look for you in every places I went, but find you when I least expected it. Twice.
I guess life can be /that/ funny.

What's new..
You grow your beard, to much of my surprise.
You let your hair grow too.
And I can't help but wonder how your life is going. Did you sleep and eat well?
Have you find someone new?

You've change a lot,
Beard and long hair didn't suit you,
Your lips get darken from you smoking too much,
And you've start to drink alcohol.

Then I began to wonder,
I wonder about the odd of me getting third chance,
I wonder about the odd of having the luxury to talk with you like we used to,
I wonder about the odd of you looking at me with the gaze that you used to give me a long time ago.

And..
What are the odds you'll find my pathetic writing and decided that maybe we can try again?

Moving On

Rindu? Sangat.

Sayang? Masih.

Pengen kembali ke kita yang dulu? Mungkin.

Kenapa mungkin?

Saya rindu kamu, setiap hari. Saya sayang kamu, sayang yang membuat saya benci melihat kamu menghabiskan berbatang-batang rokok yang jelas-jelas tidak baik untuk kesehatanmu, sayang yang membuat saya benci melihat kamu sering bergadang, sayang yang membuat saya benci melihat nilaimu yang semakin turun, sayang yang membuat saya benci waktu tau kamu mulai minum-minuman keras, sayang yang membuat saya ingin kamu kembali jadi kamu yang dulu lagi.

Tapi, mungkin memang sudah saatnya untuk melepaskan, move on ke orang yang baru.

I can't lie, you're still sit on the corner of my heart and sometimes pop yourself up on my mind. But I'm no longer letting you took control like how you used to. I love you but torturing myself with this longing feeling for someone who no longer care ain't  got me anywhere.

So I choose to let go.

Not all at once, of course. Slowly.

But I'm sure, one day I'll be able to see you with a smile instead of feeling stuffy with regret.

Karena saya percaya, dengan ikhlas pasti semuanya akan terasa lebih mudah.

And you, take care. Don't stray too far.

I'll pray for your happiness and health, always. :)